Being single pun okay, what..

"Mana pelajar yang mak ayah dia bercerai tu? Kenapa mak ayah awk bercerai?", tanya cikgu tersebut secara out loud nya dalam kelas. Di hadapan murid- murid yang lain. My sister slowly raise her hands up, while her head is facing down.

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"Anak kurang kasih sayang"

"Weyh mana ayah kau? Mana ayah kau?"

"Hahahaha". They burst into laugh.

Wow. Just, wow. I never thought that words would come from 12 year old kids. Or am I too naive to have that kind of judgement? I am not sure. There were few alike situations that happened. I don't want to repeat those insults. It's heartbroken and offended. 

Well, I know, to some people, this is a small matter. It can be solved either by ignoring or forgiving the doers or treat this matter seriously. I opt the latter. Why? Maybe because, just because my siblings became self demotivated, low self esteem and shy because some people keep putting them into a humiliation situation that I believe they themselves are adapting to accept fate that happened in our family.

Again, I am not sure whether the society have"the single mother" stigma or it is just my feeling about that based on how some people treat this group of people. 

Why am I bringing this matter up? Basically because, I couldn't stand watched/ listened my siblings being verbally bullied/ harassed by the ignorant or the so-called immature people. If this situation happens to me, I can tolerate it or speak to those people because I know how to put things into its places. While my other siblings, especially the youngest one, I am pretty sure she is juggling around with the adolescence- kind - of -things including peer pressure, mixture of inner feelings and post puberty syndrome (my assumption lol). What I can say is, she is not that stable to solve or encounter the problems by her own self. 

I am a firm believer of things happen with reasons. Allah (God) won't suffocate His slaves with burdens that they cannot bear to carry it. That is one of the strongest reason why I can accept and keep my self calm when my parents divorced. 

**will be continued**

P/s:alhamdulillah dah sampai rumah di Malaysia. Mcm2 kenangan bermain di minda bila bawa kereta pusing BTP ni, especially sekolah rendah SKBTP1. I wonder why..

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