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Mitsaqon Gholizho

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CORETAN HATI:  Bertahun menyemai rasa, alhamdulillah Allah jumpakan kita kembali pada waktu yang kukira terbaik. Terima kasih cinta untuk kesetiaan dalam menunggu. Terima kasih cinta untuk bukti kasih ini melalui perjanjian suci untuk Allah, untuk kita. 29 Jun 2020  Terpahat istimewa tarikh ini di sudut hati kerana saat itu mitsaqon gholizho termeterai. Disaksikan ahli keluarga kita yang disayangi. Majlis kita kecil, manis dan bermakna. Sentiasa membuatku tersenyum saat mengenangkan betapa istimewanya hari itu. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Some snippets on our nikah day. Tema: English style (simple) Pelamin: @ringkas.design. Dapat diskaun, harga RM650. Banyak pilihan and senang nak berurusan dengan mereka. Baju kurung dan veil: Beli di @galerikurung. Harga tak sampai RM120 pun. Tudung: Beli dengan kawan. Buy 1 free 1. Donning yang free tu sebab warna off white dia masuk dengan warna baju. Baju Melayu lelaki: @elrahexclusive.

It has been quite some time

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Yup Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. It has been quite some time since the last time I wrote something in this blog. I always have something in my mind, perfectly scripted, awaiting to be interpreted in this favourite place of mine, however, whenever my fingers started to "dance" with the keyboard, I lost my sense of eagerness to share and express myself here. As my age increase in number, I realize at times I want my presentation in the world or with whom I encounter with to be "perfect" according to my own definition. That is why multiple typing and delete has been done coz i thought what I wrote is not good enough to be presented here. But, who cares though. This is my journey, my feelings and my thoughts. May not be comprehend or fathom well by the others but I do want to understand and love myself. And while doing that, I want to understand about my life and the Creator who made it too. O Allah, please guide me. Love me. And save me from

Pujuk hati.

I think I'm a master in putting my heart at ease. But at times, I feel rebellious, sulky and upset with the things I have to face, to accept and to put up with. So, nak pujuk hati pun ambil masa. Air mata peneman yang baik pada waktu-waktu begini. Mungkin sebagai peringatan dari Tuhan, segala yang kita ingat kita miliki, mampu kawal atau punyai, tidak kekal selama-lamanya. I guess, to stay strong is the only choice I have. So, let's stay strong, dear self 😔

To look beyond anger.

Situation 1 Went to a food truck to buy laksa penang for my mother. Parked in front a car service shop, I asked for a permission from the owner (since car park was hard to find at that time), saying it won't be long as the food truck is just nearby the shop. He nodded and I was determined to make my errand shorter as I promised.  With a smile, I greeted the female owner (I guess so. Another person there is a male, the one who cooks, maybe they are husband and wife). She noted my order and I saw she put the gravy into a  small transparent plastic bag. Well, there were only two customers. I came first, followed by a lady and she placed 4 orders, maybe a dinner for her family. Right, I was expecting the order to be done for less than 5 minutes. And guess what, it took her more than 10 minutes to prepare my order. Okay, to make thing more interesting, I was scolded by her, because I think she ought me to be impatience which I was, at that time didn't portray any action

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Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan langit dan bumi serta yang berada diantara kedua- duanya. Yup, tinggal 24 hari lagi sebelum melangkah ke dewan peperiksaan serta hospital Taiping/ Seberang Jaya/ Penang untuk menghadapi peperiksaan tahun akhir pelajar perubatan. 25 hari lagi sebelum mengakhiri title 'pelajar perubatan'. Perasaan? Tempoh hari dah penat dapat panic attack. Tapi, lepas baca perkongsian seorang akhawat tentang hadis menanam kurma, terus rasa bersemangat dan tidak mahu berputus asa dengan Allah. Bukanlah usaha saya yang menetukan kejayaan saya, tetapi Allah. Boleh jadi belajar siang malam pagi petang tetapi waktu exam Allah takdirkan kita lupa. Boleh jadi belajar banyak tetapi tak faham- faham. Sedih jelah kalau macam tu. Saya selalu berharap agar ilmu yang dipelajari ini Allah berkati. Naqibah pernah pesan, tawakkal itu bermula saat sebelum berusaha lagi, sebab dalam konteks saya ni, untuk faham sesuatu topik dan penyakit pun, memerlukan tawakkal dan r

Jalan penantian.

Kukira, Dia mendengar untaian doaku Mungkin juga doa- doamu Jauh sudah kita telusuri jalan ini Jalan penantian kelihatannya seperti tiada titik penamat Kerana ia bagiku, sangat jauh ini, ditemani keraguan, yang kadang- kadang singgah di hujung minda. Namun,  saat hampirnya aku kepada putus asa, berserah sepenuh jiwa raga, Dia mengirimkanmu ketika minda jiwaku sedang dilanda ribut keserabutan. Kata- katamu tidak meleret-leret dengan janji manis, tidak pula kedengaran indah, sehingga mampu membuai-buai, hati seribu anak dara diluar sana, tetapi cukup untuk menghentikan denyutan tidak sekata, arus- arus negatif serta, prasangka- prasangka buruk aku kepada Tuhan, juga kepadamu. Kukira, Dia sedang menjawab untaian doa-doaku, yang memenuhi ruang legar atmosfera, seorang wanita yang sangat lemah, dan tidak bisa menilik masa hadapan, melainkan dengan menyerahkan ketentuan, kepada pemilik mereka. 08042018

Of soul and its medication

I love surah Maryam and surah Yusuf so much. These two surahs are my companion during study time. It never fail to put my anxiety and nervousness at ease and make me calm.  I think, Al- Qur'an is a companion that won't leave you alone, as long as we don't choose to leave it alone too. A loyal, trusted and sacred friend from above.  May Allah guide my heart to make use of Al- Qur'an wisely and may it becomes my forever companion in the Hereafter insyaAllah. I don't want to only know and read it, but I also want to understand, memorize and practice what the Qur'an preaches.  May Allah make and choose me as among those who love and practice what the Al- Qur'an said. Ameen.